I was stressing and wrestling on the daily , trying to live in the Spirit feeling stuck in my flesh,Taking Lessons I'm mainly my worst enemy Imma keep fighting Imma  do my best, focus on Jesus forget about the rest so much on my mind in the middle of this grind, trying to force everything feeling blind it gets to me how far can I bend it God will you mend it, I need you next to me ,so sick and tired feeling spacey, the Spirit is trying to pace me,  it's about God's time not  mine, he never shows up late but I'm barely learning it's hard to intergrate, tired of fallowing and trusting others just to see their true colors fake brothers Lord your the only one I trust and want to immitate, Lord you are great you make my wrath, depression, insecurities, anxiety, lies to me, feeling of unworthyness and hate all dissapate.