when i was 3 i had a dream that i died and when i woke i wad 5 and then i fell like my whole world was gone and then i went to sleep amd i was 7 when i woke up then i went to sleep agian and i was 9 when i had my first panick attsck and i was in the hospital at 11 for trying to kill myself and i am 13 now still trying to die bc i know that i like trying to kill myself and i wanna be dead bc i csnt feel the pain that hits me and all i do is cry no one cares how i feel