yeah I'm back from the gutter you know how it is facing my fears with a bottle of gin trying to hold it all down but my body can't stand it don't remind i realize All the heart i caused this to goes how to love ones I left and I lost my breathing ain't steady can't Walk a straight line my breathing ain't steady can't walk a straight line... noo everday that i walk it's battle for the greater good wishing i could hold u given what i should no if ands or buts i didn't give u my All would u blaim me fighting with my struggles and withdrawals. The hurt and the pain bae i gave u it all but it's not about me I see you be struggling debating on whether the shit that u been through was worth All the good we had and we went through you we fought and we argued and we did it again that's okay cuz you know how relationships is I don't blame you feeling the way that you did my actions and thoughts is what did us all in I admit i done fucked up i admit to my sin but if I knew better i would have gave you my wish that wish is to treat you like no other woman and then.... i was stuck. I realized right then i was scared to admit it's a lot harder when you try to commit to a living when you don't even know which way that you're going you trying to do what you got to you know that the devil got a hold of you. strapped down with the crobar . don't even know you are. it's ok though. im with u forever. and then you wake up to the same shit. thoughts foggy blurry vision hyperventilating trying to hold your breath but your thoughts in the way making you hesitant stress heavy on the chest thinking you would turn to my left but the right side made you feel the most comfortable. i already know how it is baby you ain't even got to hold it in.. fighting to try to make a grin on the way to work scrubs on bout to put in work but it really hurts, see the messages coming in on your phone leave me on read, because when you respond it really makes worse. the feelings of regret and pain to think you think that we never would have worked. thinking that's it for the best. less stress on the chest. and just know that I love you and I will always try to do my best............. yeah I'm back from the gutter you know how it is facing my fears with a bottle of gin trying to hold it all down but my body can't stand it don't remind i realize All the heart i caused this to goes how to love ones I left and I lost my breathing ain't steady can't Walk a straight line my breathing ain't steady can't walk a straight line... noo