life what I' iys just another another day I wake up and gotta contemplate on another way to get paid my cake up I'm tired of living this way with no end in sight will it change I no it's the choices I made that put me in this predicament I'm fed up and sick of it but I can't blame anybody else but my dam self I got myself in this situation and it's time to be a man about it and handle the shit im facing getting so high taking every hit to the brain hoping to numb the pain I'm trying hard keep my composure and maintain they say God gives his hardest battles to his strongest soldiers and right it feels like I'm lifting the weight of the world on my shoulders amazed that ice stayed sain and kept my composure everyday I pray and thank the Lord above and thank him for his love and for the strength To rise above the exposure that I was exposed my whole life I remember times I was afraid I won't lie hoping I dont die cuz death is scary especially not knowing what waits on the other side not even on my worse enemy would I wish death to them I hope God and looks past my mistakes and opens the pearly Gates to heaven and let's me in I'm asking the same question as SPM is there a place in heaven for a crazy mexican