its tough, what do you mean? its not easy being in my position wait what? let me break it down for you, everyday for me its a fight to survive, im forever tramatized of my 18 year old life i request help to end the flashbacks of my flesh and blood abusing me. im sorry i cannot help it im full of scars stop the nightmares i have them from my flesh and blood, end the flashbacks please, but i guess thats not gonna happen stop the bleeding. stop them from anymore anger towards me but that will never work so all im gonna say is this you stay of my way and i will stay out of yours. see ya