can somebody wake me up from this nightmare this cant be real, sometimes i cant believe this is my life i lost my house my kids and my wife, my addiction slowly took over , im locked inside this prison cell a slow torturous hell. with no bail. I don't want to always hurt the people that i truly love you think i enjoy watching all the pain and sadness no its tough. Ive broke a lot of people's trust. I lost the love of my life my best friend my heart my wife. and it kills me every day they wanna hang out with Dad but hes not here to play. and when I see my girls I don't even know what to say. i know one day it will be okay until then i stay heart broken it really sucks cuz I wear it on my sleeve sometimes I want to just pack up and leave but i know I got people watching and they want to see their dad succeed and be everything he knows that he can be. I know I'm going to make it be outside watching my kids on the slide nice ride see the kite glide my best on my right side. so here I go wish me luck, can't do anything staying in one spot stagnant and stuck. Put your big boy pants time to buck up butter cup you've been thunderstruck now go get yourself unstuck.