closed up Holed up Just like they want me to be I hold back There's so much That I don't want you to see Don't tell me another thing That I don't want to believe You think I'm special I think im a shell I won't try to deceive But don't you leave I swear to God I couldn't stand if you left Cause I could never be right It's hard enough to be getting through these nights As it is Truthfully I'm addicted to the pain Of brutally facing life And hating my Existence I'm bleeding My heart is pleading I can't seen to find a meaning In the pain Guess it's time to be leaving I don't see a point of grieving Any more As I cry I fiend for more Never satisfied till I die And I'm buried six feet more I'll waste away before I get the chance to end it all What's the point of life I'm waiting for God to call Till then i hold the knife Paranoid inside the walls I call my mind Till we fall ill never cry at all I've been trying to be someone that deserves all your love In the end I seem to fall the same place that I just