dont understand it, all of a sudden my sunny skies were gone and all i could see were dark clouds threatning with rain. used to having you but then u left me in world cold as ice no sun in the sky my only feeling inside is pain lost without you in a cconstant state of confusion ill never be the same, and so much hate from anger tells me its only u to blame i feel the hurt slwly turn to rage then it bubbles out like a pot of water on the stove boiling til it overflows. i go yo sleep wake up and stuff it all back inside so none of my friends will know. blaming you for hurting me so many tears my eyes are blind and o cant see i wish that i was fine i wanna feel okay i beg god to help me erase the painful memy of what we had, when it was only u and me. my days are filled with liquor gambling and drugs getting so fucked up trying lose myself in a rush tbut no matter what i drink or smoke you float back into my mind just like a ghost haunting me making me feel like i cant breathe. i apologize for every thing to u i did wrong every lie i told to decieve now i feel it hard cause u never belive . when will this end i feel like im bound to die cause my heart will never mend ill be left hiding it onside trying to pretend u never belonged to me u are not even my friend. i needed this i had to vent it makes me feel better to let ot out this way than to keep it inside ibstead of broken or shattered i now feel a little bent.i love you knowing u hate me with my constant prayer i know it will not hurt eventually.