at age 12 mama od unlike me age 13 tried to ease the pain by smoking weed and cigarettes still upset wonder where my mom at like fuck that let's get back to the subject I still talk back I've been really suicidal and depressed nigga I've been stress knowing I've been blessed I still got to go to school I've been bullied too niggas saying fuck you like what I do I know I'm uncool me and the siblings playing playschool and I say I'm just trying to teach you to to stay cool stay in school but don't get bullied too I stand up for you and don't do anything I do but I'm only in 8 grade looking for jobs just to get paid still got bad grades and yes I did pray but we still got some good days even on a bad days I still been raised to be a better person even though things may worsen and I still got things I'm loving and I'm just rehearsing and when I get a car I know I'll be swerving I hope that things will be perfect I know I'll be a better person and I'm just rehearsing for what's next for now I'll just sit back at my desk but I just get sadder I try to make it better and I know it's getting better so I pray and I pray for better days but still hope I lay and wake the next day but for now I'll just pray for a better day age13 started smoking weed and that's the life of me gang.