10 pm I load a boul yeah I'm getting high cause I realized that I fucking hate my life lay back down and my mind's in another place I'm in this repeating cycle trying to change my fate light a cigarette see the smoke fill the air all my intentions and emotions gone elsewhere cause theres no one in this life that seems to care it ain't fucking fair life ain't fair no thats the matto liven too fast hope we die slow living our lives like anxiety's a fucking joke mind your own business bitch I'm tryin to let go ive seen my past life what's my future is every day the fucking same? is there no cure except for you babe you've taken all my pain now I'm just living every day tryin to rebuild my name I used to smoke weed now I just drink a lesser evil of the two but I still rethink what if I never met you would I still be me the man that I'm now or the fool I used to be but every night I drink cause I dont wanna think thoes suicidal thoughts that keep controlling me wish I could just be still and not have to deal with all these feels