Everyday i tell me self not to panic drug abuse has me in s frantic. I can grip or understand it. I need help before i do somthing durastic. I finish a beer and and smash it cut my My self self leave scars and fragments Ive pushed friends away cause i want to be a drug addict. I broke her heart now i csn see wherevthere are tears cand cracks in it. Ive shot my shot in a barrel of fish. I found my happiness with you and your kid I may live to say that im okay with it . I could use drugs again but it would take A big part of me!. I dont connnect with family or pick  up responding. Im numbing my self with the devil putting thoughts in my head that are demonic. I  abuse and use people around me to be honest. I took 100 from my moms pockets. Just to feed an addition Im soon to be inside of a coffin. I skip a few songon therasio  cause the way im feeling in my brain there on it. I dance then i begin to panic pick up the cigarrete and beer i slam it. Thank god for you me and everyone who show me love when i am quiet frantic. Drug abusibg has me in in bsck sest with the past strapped in we going through your trail  till you undestand what happened . I choose drung over company cause your lies make mother nature cry. Why do you think tears are falling from the sky