Beloved I trod and knew alot and begot sad and read books unread feeling like I was almost dead without bread I begot sad for all the times I told you lies that only I know were true but according to your own eyes I mumbled words that have no substance until you see my naked eyes and realise the world What have i done to deserve no forgiveness? I live my life thinking, what have i done to make sure the next person says nothing wrong about me I don't follow my heart for it deceives and send me to ends of the world I cannot return, since I met the heart of a woman I began to wonder off into the world unknowing, blind, for I saw the beauty of a woman, and couldn't carry her home with me, I was told I'm unworthy of you, and told also to look down upon myself in total misery and shame, like you ant the same , like I don't deserve the fame, or not even that my name, I was trashed before your eyes when she died, I became afriad and different, and i let go off all lies I spoke the truth before her dying eyes calling for her mother I'm distress, tragedy, God welcome me, I saw chaos and a soul I once knew broken, her blood flowed through the cavities of my hands, and I aoke the next morning in disbelief and total shock and my love was gone forever more, I didn't how to make my way back, check!