Gotta be rolling outta bed soon Here in about fifteen minutes I’ve got nothing planned in my head yet So it sounds not so serious the life I live it seemingly really is I’m battling demons in a nightmarish dream I maya made woke up feeling so dark n grey guess dead’s the price Ya payed should’ve never stayed now stuck with Friends I wish I would’ve never made screwed off over the stupidest things mistakes w no endin so there’s nothing to make up steadily broke w no hope today jumping straight in em shameful hateful sinninz erased new beginnings relationships take ya all the way in it so make tha best of it got kicked outta tha only place I had left of mine wasn’t really much now shyt just really sux stay outta the way finna go savage as fux makin sure it’ll hold us down from worrying ab it too much bc I’m tired of skipn showers and lunch stress frees where I wanna be karma and dramas weighing up on me 26 years of my life searching for Love and still ain’t found it you doin it with the wrong intent resentful endeavor in this place trying not loose any of the reason I choose you only to end up wrongfully confused shady fake and just a blur in a fade more reason to hate the choices I’ve ever made Even though everything in my guts Erie feelings telling me sway but I didn’t and its more than evident I froze in the shade as if I was hidden away and I know I’m not because it’s the middle the day can’t shake tha feels I got with drank or any pills I got still so shelled up n scarred scared and peeled myself away from scheming game’s people play while hating everything that was never made to ever hate n all why are we outta loosing sight of what a heart was then erasing all tha emotional stuff were messing shyt up straight frum the start just keep ya head up cus maybe someday somebody ll give a fuck and the stupidest thing means more than the world to all of us Tired of the ones who roasten a God like what is a church to us n question a life fuss when it doesn’t even work right why do we suffer why do we hurt tired of tears running from fears and lies from our peers I needed real help with real answers not drown em with beers so many pills threw away so many skills drugs and more drank I’m so used to it still can’t hardly think lost in the pain so Im still using them to forget everything so stop what you thinking or that negative mind el stay stankn gotta be positive ta break changes mind over the hell of it anything’s better than jail n shyt Try your self a lil encouragement for help with the new challenges tossed in your souls embellishments just smile and move on!