I don't wana die but I been thinking lately shit been driving me crazy mentally draining I'm fighting to save me. I'm trying to be patient. my mind tryin to find light but it's suck in the basement got me thinking is there even a heaven that is awaiting disgraced with the mistakes I was making that's thrown in my face like i just made them then act like I only caus hur but didn't take none. never acted innocent in any situation I can't take this rip the heart out of my soul and left it vacant a dark cloud is what my brite days is replaced with it seems like no matter which road I go it keep raining even if I loose control to the point you can't save me straight jacket insane my heart will still be waiting. you the only one with key the this hell I'm caged in searching for our love make it and not desalination wonder how long ima make it with this smile I keep faking. the story of our life girl I'm trying to save it. our chapters was the only part of mine that was amazing. sence you been gone I feel like all of my days are wasted. without you the rest of my life is nothing but empty pages. nothing but day with walking areound but dont say shit to no one cauz I don't want them to know where my brain is. it's going insane with the shit I wish I was changing. back when you was mine and I had a chance to change it. as we speak I'm holding back tears when I say this. I know I made alot of mistakes but your not blameless what I did what you did please why can't we take this as a lesson learnd and not somthing thats breaks us. I will sacrifice and change can't be the only one who pays up I wish you would say some othere than we ant nothing when I'm crying on the phone and you block me when you hang up that's what makes me wana go to sleep and never wake up.