so many things i wanna say to them just forgive. mistakes have to be made in order to grow . listen , im sorry for the things i did ive done i never pictured it this way. so many memories got washed away it sad how much pain ive caused i am sorry i just wish i could forget it all. i use to look up in the sky and ask God why he would put me through this pain. i gained so many things but i lost the most important thing to me those little hearts that means the world to me you cant understand the pain i felt all the lies that you heard about me just because i left she got pregnant by another man there was nothing left. i surrendered to feeling depreesed and had to accept that losing was all that was left. but dont think for one moment i never loved you because that aint true i couldnt face the fact i let you both down and i had to change me to be someting new. all the prayers in the world i would say to god. dom the last night i knew it was over i kissed you goodnight i told you to always be a lion never feel sad im here.. i just needed to change me for yaw if i was still the same person i was i would have lied and been nothing at all so here my sorry i know it dont make things right just no my nights always ended with a pray and asking god to kiss yaw everynight kamiece your special. dont let nobody tell you diffent what you feel in your heart is real its a perfect picture. to you my angel above it was rough said i quit and never gave up. mistakes is suppose to let us grow. to the both of you I love you forever thats my real truth i just want yaw to know. you probably wont understand this now but someday u will. it takes time but i never should have included you both in order for me to heal. this is real. I have been through the darkest ocean and died and cover up the pain i would feel dom your my soul and mirce your my light please when you grow up know ive made mistakes but i always prayed for you both at night. stars shine when you make a wish. i layed on the floor and made a wish to hold u both again. i had to get up and fight all over again. still i was wrong i should have been there i know and i hope its not to late now im so close to swimming up from the dark to be the man i know i can be . there will be many laughs and we will have many memories. to my kids i love you and thats just how it will always be.