I been heartbroken too many times before Tryna figure shit out and pick the pieces off the floor I been outspoken bout what’s on my mind and in my soul Come to find out that these hoes don’t need to know Had to be on my own jus to learn how to grow Can’t leave my house w/o reaching for my pole Uh my anxiety Rising Can’t keep them demons from out inside of me She was my drug but now I’m Reaching for the pills and the liquor cuz I gave up on sobriety I can here my demons laughing I can here my momma crying They jus want wats best for me I’m pushing on tryna find some better things Pushin on but ain’t got too much left in me Seems like the things that I love gon be the death of me Got me looking internally Questioning Is it me? Am I looking for the wrong things? Am I enough is something wrong w me? Mental state such a got damn fragile thing Self destructing Too much to handle got me reaching for another 30 Had crush it up yuh fuck me up Runny nose on a sunny day lean hit me w the bubble gut Uh huh head aching heart aching life so got damn painstaking Mind racing How tf am I supposed to remain patient Closest thing to patient is the asylum I’m stuck in my head only one patient Other than that it remains vacant And there really hasn’t been a day since I stopped thinking about you Sometimes I wonder if you think about me too When I walk around my city I carry a glock As a matter of fact I got two