this is a song about my relationship with my mother whom I had never seen physically until the age of 17 when I had already been through so many group homes and institutions that there were no place else left to go. at that point in my life my DFS case manager suggested that we reach out to my mother or go to a boy's prison and tell us an adult so we resell to my mother. she came from El Paso Texas to Columbia Missouri to pick me up it was her her husband and my little brother and sister not a b**** I've ever met or talk to me for we talked for a moment I got my things together and I left with her to tell Paso. I felt really out of place there being that they were all Caucasian and I was biracial and so one day when my mother and her husband went to work little brothers this was at school I skipped school and caught a Greyhound bus back here to Columbia Missouri. since then I'm not spoken with my mother at all a little brother nice to keep in contact but she doesn't want anything to do with me not right now is her words at least he says the one she used. and I'm cool with that I gave up on the love from her long time ago I forgiven him forgotten however now I'm grown I have several children and I think that they still deserve to have the love of a grandparent so this is me reaching out.