~Vanitas~ everyone seems so quick to say not to try them a preemptive quip deflecting what they're hiding but what is, is so I won't disguise this go ahead try me my life's an open diary of broken trust and vile deeds mixed with hope and love you can't hope to describe the dynasty of finery that is my life in the scope of its entirety with such garden variety types of dire piracy so I'd advise a bit less open piety and more spoken sobriety a high horse still won't fly of course so quit acting imperious it is in fact delirious I wrecked em cause their crap rap is so ass its gassed on the spectrum nearly autistic with this shit that I spit cause some pathways in my brain just don't make enough sense while others make waves like tsunami type winds a lyrical hurricane deranged and dangerous flinging verbiage which hangs up every unanchored person like no wonder they're anxious by my verse's surges don't complain when you exclaim then get berated that's a higher grade than you deserve for outright failing you're lucky if it even bugs me enough to disclaim it you just can't seem to see yourselves unjaded when Your self bias lies and It all too often compromises Creates excuses you imbibe in Instead of truths to realize when Improvement is required You refuse to fuel that fire Because all of your desires Are simply selfishness suppliers But I'm my own worst enemy I tear me down and watch me bleed I hear myself out clinically Listening quite cynically Then I reach into the mirror Grip my shirt and pull me nearer So I can say right to my face When I'm full of shit or I'm afraid You can't beat someone who knows themself And me with me, yeah I know him well There's nothing you can say to me That hasn't been said in my head already Way ahead of the same things you're letting prohibit your growth aiding and abetting to diminutive tropes as you continue regressing But there's an advantage To my introspective antics Because I'm heavy handed And don't permit myself a bandage Which lets me brandish A ruthless pedantic Of truths that demanded The misuse of excuses to be reprimanded So only truth can be left standing I despise lies and I'll never compromise Better to know the truth Even when it sucks Than to placate a masquerade Made in a bakery of fakery and fluff So keep puffing out your chest Swelling up like bread The yeast of your deceit Inflating the weak ego in your head Meanwhile I'll be addressing All the flaws that I have So that I'm never second guessing Or trying to impress Don't get it twisted Just learn the difference Between being indignant And ignorant There's another difference you should probably know Between confidence And arrogance for show but it seems fairly obvious that it's gone missed by you folks so here's a little hint It's capability It's why you can't hold a candle When you stand next to me I outshine your lies Because my light is pure And not just a disguise Hiding that I'm insecure You cannot fix a problem Or inequity You refuse to acknowledge That's why you can't get to me pompous proclamations that I'm dropping nonsense pontification only soften up your basement like sodden rotten logs propping a displaced and dishonest foundation This goes against your instincts Of that much, I am certain But try to act after you think And perhaps you'll grow to become a better fucking person Maybe if you can judge yourself as you do others Then you'll begin to understand How to stop being so stubborn And actually improve Instead of being fake By owning what you do And fixing your mistakes your nonsense is not my problem but if you think I'm yours go ahead come on then though you won't solve shit for yourselves by flocking to death's doorstep. ~Justin Farrow