every where i go i hope you know your always gonna be on my mind someone special to me try not to let go of the past kinda like a hoarder i struggle from hoarding memorys..i struggle to move forward and never look back to the old me ..forgiviness towards myself aint as easy see then id have to let my memory's float away hard to accept the things i cannot change .. but i payed attention to the things i can got older realized some the things kinda gave up wasnt feeling good enough to be alive..nobody care next swept under the rug like the problem was never there ..turn to different things to cope we do it sometimes to find hope some its the rnd of the road...now because of a drug you wanna be this is whats up...fuck no who you think you is...coming at me like your lifes perfect and you figured it out .. ugly asf .. disrespectful moments between alot of us most of us family here refuse to be bout the sober life ..but its for the better right nope jus so everybody can walk away honestly to what the future is so fucked relationships are being tore up kids are getting fucked up and morals destroyed ... society lost its sense of direction and pricipalities many in panic for what you.. know what you doing when you was fucking up better gain control.nowdays they call it the wave everyone else starts to fall in so leaders led astray so for you i pray ... above all power over the masses as they watch it all happen ..teach you to pray but never in public leading by example our leaders claim to be men faith. but yet take Jesus christ out of the schools well the white house on different levels not true thats what they will tell you.. even went to the extent to change alot of things not meant to be changed ... seen alot of family be tore apart from money slowly within without hesitation the government will kil you for not conforming to its plan .. .Seems I've lost myself since I last spoke to y'all ...the devils hard at work through my addiction trapping me through people to projects anywhere Life is been crazy and nobody understands I ain't perfect never will be neither will you except that sooner then life will be alot smoother Got caught slippin las winter on some Dumb shit judge wanna give me couple years.. tried to take care of it but i sold my car to get out of jail .. kinda fucked myself relying on someone else to get me there.. the state steady trying to make me look stupid over my children cause I couldn't make it to the last court hearing ..here we go again as they strip my rights as a father then degrade me as a person point out all my flaws but forget there is two of us .. Anticipation of me breaking which will never happen this lifetime sucka keep it moving antisocial in public thanks to society shallow fuckers ...wont let nobody near me already been played enough ..aint gunna allow my family and childrren to miss out on the real me me in private around family that's really me but you won't ever catch it though..make you laugh smile cry and make you feel like your the greatest person alive ..but now due to the many different faces from family to foes..cold cold world makes for cold individuals ..ritualistic parties dark enemies watching form afar waiting to kill us all Spirituàlly physically Slick talk to fake walks these imposters got the shit all fucked up .. Family will kill ya and feel like they had you dead to rights over a petty arguement last week always To proud to ask for help but expect it to be done when they need it friends try to be slick play games over a bitch