think of holding this pain I think about the migraine s think about the things I cannot explain when i hide away sick of my own brain e even though I get odd d peak ou t and over react they just come at me i ha be tactics I just need to show them that I'm spastic I'll get some people wrapped up in plastic Stuck tied up in my  in my attic, that's the truth because I'll show you on the booth. 888 I kill it when I've rip out your tooth with the pliers if I choose . That's the way I play reminising on connex times what memorays young little wanna be eshay lad but not today   wearing Nike Tns dry fits with stains Rocking back ons and run ups that got buffed due to complains . That's what I wanted back then till 18 and I wasn't letting anyone stop my reign Until the jacks kick the door on the 18th birthday because that's not fair like my self-centred mistakes my stuff wS racked and tak payers lost there earned intake , I just was an idiot. feigning escape so shopping to be zombifiss due to the medication my lies garunteeed i got wat is mine 3 months later I'm.So over prescribed Under weight and i need to vomit or shit at the dame time. exercise a goal and some good friends plus a  diet rben though I'm an idiots I'm just luck luck be alive , I'm just an idiot maybe I should be hospitalised Maybe I should realize I think about prioritize my mind and get away from the place I might describe as hell . But there's a right because I'll get it. one day and call it swells , that's a well I've got my family by my back and they greT people and they ain't gonna fucking  kick me out of this house before I cannot even get around another earn couple cents to make my own urge to make my own and make myself happy and hurt the only way balance life is with calibrated scales cause it's a real sign weather I will get tick of or jail Life isn't gumma be harder than what i have eliminated strife to summon the smarter land that I thank for