There's some people I wish I could say good bye too But there in a better place and honestly I wish I could fly too Heaven  just for a day so you could see the way we turned out and I pray that you kno a were okay right now I Remember that Thursdays like it was yesterday I wish could go back to the better days Back to when you sent us a card and 20 bucks for our birthdays and that one time little bro and I spent the night on a church Nanna  I hope when  you left it was peaceful with no regrets And as I'm writing this biting lip to keep from crying  but in my eyes there's tears I'm bout to hypervent ] Can't breathe silent battles take away oxygen so I choke my feeling and bottle them throw it way than than I wonder where the problems went  and when I was ten you gave me a choice book store. Or the movies so we went and bought some books  one was the weapons of world War 2 everything you said I love you I never said it back so when you were in the hospital and I said I love you you couldn't say it back I wish I could take it back  That's my biggest regret and I could never forget the feelings I had I was so mad and I prayed it wouldn't happen again I'm still not okay my its just a matter or when is it going to happen again its still there I'm just masking the pain Call me venom he's a mask with a name   and honestly I thought I would never change I think you would be proud of me and iknkw your looking down on me hopefully your smiling and I want you to know the holidays are still hard I remember finding eggs of Easter searching through your yard Listening to your dogs barking out back in the fence and the waybi feel it depends And when I think back  and i know it's been a few years but everyday I wish your were here there were some days