where to go

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22 Dec 2021

everyday I get put down/ first from friends then from family/ why can't yall leave me alone and ket me live happily/ sitting on my sofa popping xanys and vikining/ trying to live life but this life is to frightening/ on my knees praying/ take this pain away/ wipe my eyes of these tears/ this world I don't wanna stay/ asking questions with no answers/ why is this happening to me?/ I been 2 hell and back abused the most mentally/ both of my parents left me to fend in the streets/ 13 foster homes/ now I'm left to feel the grief/ do I even like 2 b free/ bound me chains throw me in a cage/ don't lecture like no priest/ I try and try again to b the best like u wanted/ but it's all Fallin apart, chopped in half like Paul bunyan/ damn, is this the world I truly live in/ over n over contemplating on the day I choose to leave/ i try to deal with my problems and emotions but it comes back to slap me/ takin my kindness for weakness running me like a track meet/ naw I'm tired of that life I'm living/ I'm steady changing everyday but do I like this life I was given/ told I got potential/ but I'm potentially losing a part of me/ u gave me life I was ur seed but u harming me/ it was suppose to b me n u/ us as a whole/ father n son never thought you'd get old/ when I was in jail u was there for me/ now that I'm out I felt like u ain't care for me/ lock me up and throw away the key don't let me breathe/ this my final destination going toward my destiny/ I'm already living in hell/ can't get no worse then this/ jus let me think how I can get through thos/ my life ain't all its made out to be/ it's more fucked up then ur eyes will let u see/ ur mind will b blown if I told u what all happened to me/ til next time that we meet again/ swallowed up by pain n addiction I've created many Sins/ -ricoswave-

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