they are afraid they're afraid of what I can become my dad thinks pills will fix me my meds aren't working all I have to do is pull the trigger he'll be gone I fucking hate him I just wish he'd die all I need is my dad to be a decent guy I hate him all he does is drink half of the time he just ignore me all because I'm disabled he treats my sister Maddie better than me she's a disapointment all she does is beat me I wish booth of them would die I don't want to be alive anymore I can't take the abuse anymore all I have to do is pull the trigger pop pop pop pull the trigger pull the trigger pull the trigger pull the trigger