10-21-19 Another night spent alone, without you, without me. How many times do these nights need to be Haunting me, holding me prisoner Holding me captive in my own skin Hours of solitude, only my mind and me Filling my thoughts up with reality and what I've made it to be Reminicing of joy are gone Laughter is foregin, forgotten How could this be true What have I done  My struggling hourly to cope with the painful heartbroken tragidy Melencholy that is fueled by Absence of love Chosen distance Embraces rejected This is better For who Is it easier to neglect it Just to share Some of the heavy The shock Of what has slowly crept in To suddenly be Left alone No one for respite Just fucking accept it Gone gone gone, he is always gone Another night spent alone Chosen Without me