I lost you forever ago now i dont care about my ego but i never wanted you to go you're what i need indeed i feel like a evil seed but why'd you have to convince me theirs good inside of me when i dont see it myself i quit putting my feelings on the shelf now i cant even tell you how i feel im being real with you now i think about you thats all i can do now that whatever we had got gone with the wind like that ill never see you again why did this have to happen why couldn't i take some kinda action im falling so far behind its not even funny i just wanted you to be my honey but i didn't commit to it i know i shouldn't dwell on it you told me never doubt the love you had for me i nevee have despite my messed up mentality i still care which might seem unfair but tell me what in life is how many times ive said i couldn't do this now im going back all the way back to when you use to pick me up when my spirit fell it's clear im still going through hell im not well put back in my shell and i feel like its a trap i can't get out of even if i tried i gotta tell you this since its on my mind i loved you then and a part of me does now wow never thought id really admit please have me committed to the ward before i go overboard i use to adore the times on the phone now its forever gone how can i sit here with the memories and act like everything's fine when my heart got ripped straight out through my spine you was one of kind now i gotta push it to the back of my mind because now i know you'll never be mine