I can't remember the wind in my face ,that I wasnt watching every word every step ,I need to learn to be free, I stay high so I can't sleep , I might close my eyes, and I wake up not free, wake up in scream,im now so imbalanced, I stagger around I act like this hasnt shut me down , I begging , my eyes to quit seeing things as suspect, yeah I know that I'm damaged, i really don't want to be this way but it's kept me , so aware , say my prayers, cause my thoughts and feelings over thinking, my mind is drained, it's so hard not to analyze every word every action,every point of the visit, I sit and fidget, like dragons to wizards, I have no idea how to function, inside, my mind , I try not, too let my mind fool me ,but I'm hombed in,i call snake eyes, I can find lies , it's just need it to be final ,I hope that I can be better than I was before, what can I say, I don't think I'll be able to trust