I was gone for a year, all my hopes and dreams we're suppose to come true. My heart and soul, whats that? i dont know who i am anymore. you were my anchor and im lost in the sea of death. valley of death? i wish. i'd rather be in a battlefield. instead im drowning in this sea of tears. why am i here? ive failed in everyway and i just want to die. i want to die. I want to die. Colten my boy I want to see you, hold you, im sorry that i failed you.