Stop everything inside that causes callous eyes perceive but don't demise only go devise and don't commit suicide. Tsunami choking and I drown drowning descending into a world that only sounds like its actually okay I want to rue the day but I can't exactly play with these drugs that only parlay can't see the screen because I only scream the truth is I live in a world only dreams and what exactly does that mean? I can envision and attain the knowledge but can't seem to use it or just go to college what has God planned when I can barely stand with pain emanating from my hands my back a crumpled man my nerves they flare and spasm this world cannot just be my anthem need to drop the cages, cuffs and rages entrapments and bars that can't set me free these pills of morphine I take 10 a day addiction it will never dissipate only seems to strengthen and instate graded for my state. The angels wouldn't let me in the gates but maybe thats for the best my negative energy would only cause duress. And now its off my chest. Need to understand that iam blessed comprehend im not finished here not on deaths door or in arrears Have survived car crashes many times, overdosed flatlining signs while my ex girlfriend gives me cpr recently carjacked and scarred held at gunpoint while my possessions are taken passed out at the wheel authorities act like I'm fakin persecuted for many things truth is I deserve just about everything