Losing confidence to fate everybody's all about the rate and all about what you can take but there's nothing I can state because there's nothing on my plate I want my life to change but everything just stays the same carrying so much pain being carried down the drain injecting fentanyl, oral morphine, oxycodone its all the same been addicted to opiates for many years a decade of only tears why can't I face my fears why can't I face my fears? Take over a gram of morphine a day to stay this bullshit chronic pain I feel can barely walk but my family expects me to work a 9-5 how can I endure and stay alive sciatica spasming my leg the agony just never dissipates crooked back that only brings me down feel like Iam starting to drown and I need to get of this town there's nothing for me here anymore. Totaled 2 cars, double hit and run on them bars, how am I not in jail when I cause these torrential hails put my family through so much gravity not sure how they support my insanity proceeds of crime and possession charges countless dollars lost to nothing. how am I alive so many crashes I should have died carjacked at gunpoint I don't think I realize that something protecting these eyes its in the skies God watches over and cries but he walks with me in tandem reminding me of his anthems I've lost so much experienced so much death duress I can feel the pressure on my chest can't take a breath not finished yet but I have to honor the protection that he let's me get why has everyone around me died overdosed and hit the skies while I'm still here suffering but pushing for a better life so sick of the strife the drugs on my right the devils in sight but I don't appreciate his light so pick up morality before divinity sets you right.