#beginner #rapfame wrappen lifes in plastic 9 millis grasping droping mags like caskets street riding like ima beat flowing like water under feet cold in the heat fire on water no gasoline words felt deep no gain to reach im toppin of cause my tops blown off i blow off the trees ima leaf in the wind through the cracks i squeeze lika a draft driften me to breathe but ima breeze right past like the outcomes ive overseen like forgeting somthing you wernt supposed to leave but checking pockets for keys yall so quck to up and leave when yall rushing to get where ya want to be i make my place waitng paitently while holding my grip grinch my teeth anxiety sweaten heavy cause being alone makes me independent but if only you knew im so alone i hide the fact of being codependent i need a shoulder to lean i thought youd be my soilder to the end the way you stuck to me but here i am back to fence no defenses im letting every body get the best of me when i used to be hard to defeat in battles id kill anybody now no desire to draw and send um to hell i stand at will letting my self sink ina puddle of mud but its just a dirty pudfle of blood im giving up chocking on my mistakes ive made huge deals on bets to late to change odds of losing a mill to 1 but im the 1 in a mill cause ill never take the ell suprising i let umm doo me in like diggin wells my bodies tense in numb full of suspense im dumb dropping back i fell of track skiping glass and breaking glass to get something worth jail no bail losing the best i neglect or often ignore the rest cause i been in pain bleeding to death hard to breathe im given in holding chest i gasp and crash releasing my last breath falling to my knees so far at ease thinking deaths the way for me oh im screaming but yall dont see i hear your eyes when they blink ........