lord please give me a sign cuz im going crazy with all these evil thoughts running through my mind i feel like im losing control and i dont know how much more i can take before i break and unload on the whole front row sometimes i afraid of myslef and dont know who to turn to and ask for help cuz i feel nobody cares so i ride solo and stick to myself and get hie all the time even though its bad fir my health and i know my mom can tell im getting drugged out but sometimes its the only way to numb the pain and not give a fuck bout a dam thing nit even myself when i die lord i ask to open the pearly gates and let me in cuz im already living in hell and i want to be in peace especially when the clock stops ticking is there a spot open for this crazy Mexican im hoping that i can get through and continue my journey and full fill lifes purpose but is it really worth it togo through all the pain and to see all this misery going on in this world today i promised my Lil boy and girl ill change my momma ask me will i change i tell her yea but its clear ill always be the same