When I finally realized. the demise apon recognization. of facin myself in the mirror. pacing back and forth. mind racing. erasing my own memory. making c changes. taking the time to be a better person. observing the world through a collidascope. everything seems missplaced and hard to tell. what the Hell is happening. a vision blurriur and furriest past. moving too fast. the speed of life is ever energizing. and re establishing. reimbursement. planning to become a billionaire. where are all the buyers? guess giving it out for free. is instant retirement. before even starting a conglomerate. topics of astonishment. toxic to society. but ment to show hardship. so you can bypass and go around the struggle of the hardest path. why do I choose the wrong way when it's obvious. to do right. and not bring life to a rock bottom. frieghtening state. of like drowning in a lake. feeling of intense anxiety. I try to be righteous. my life is great and I always look for the positives. even when life gives you lemons make lemonade. don't degrade others. try not to get enraged when things aren't going your way. but still I wanna live lavishly. and be a master of my own reality. have no falicy. but I feel non existent. and then bigger than what is all. I don't wanna be the most infamous. I just might be. it's alright with me. I was not raised to be praised. just to say forget the charade. I wanna become a made man. unstoppable and a can do of whatever my mind sets. the best of the best...