Jason Furr
Jason Furr

last will and testament

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I'm at war with my demons all day and night they are yelling and screaming its like Good and evil always seem to tangle can never look at anything from the same angle I wonder if that's why my guardian angel always looks so tired and mangled maybe I just need to look at life from a different angle but when a homeless bum goes from sleeping under a bridge to living on a million dollar boat it kind of makes my s*** not want to float so I guess I'm doing this so everybody knows what I was thinking on my life come to a close I was thinking lifetime me down for 30 plus years I've lied to myself I've hoped I'm prayed of Life away many tears but one thing that I have learned through these 30 years is once someone has an image of you a certain way there's nothing you can do in this life to change it so I'm tired of feeling the way I feel and I've chosen to end it I'm not f****** around with the gauge of a rope long as it's strong enough to make my ass choke I'm tied around his beam and I'm going to watch all my hopes wishes prayers dreams float away as I am embraced by my guardian angel to take me to a better place a place where I don't have to wish hope pray and dream of someone that would love for who I am because this person does not exist not in this life the past and probably not the next so for everybody had a questions of wondering why I did what I did I'm tired of being a f****** I'm tired of being nothing I'm tired of hoping that I'll amount to something when I know that it's written in the book that I end up just like my father I can only hope my path and just quick as his so I guess this is the last one testament but been as I ain't got s*** I ain't got to worry about s*** I got no one to leave my box of my grandfather's pictures too his medals so in reality what I've got out of 40 years couple felonies about 20-30 misdemeanors a lifetime of pain sorrow not to mention inadequacy I guess I've lost my frequency because I know this is where I'm supposed to be hopefully no one else ends up like me that's why I'm doing this so they can see why it's so important to have someone that's truely believes because without at least that one person someone like me will never succeed sometimes lies is the best thing you can tell especially when you're dealing with someone that you can't really help sometimes it only help that you can give is a kiss a hug or touch and at the end of the day is that really asking that much I don't think so but then again who gives a f***

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2 years ago

I'm at war with my demons all day and night they are yelling and screaming its like Good and evil always seem to tangle can never look at anything from the same angle I wonder if that's why my guardian angel always looks so tired and mangled maybe I just need to look at life from a different angle but when a homeless bum goes from sleeping under a bridge to living on a million dollar boat it kind of makes my s*** not want to float so I guess I'm doing this so everybody knows what I was thinking on my life come to a close I was thinking lifetime me down for 30 plus years I've lied to myself I've hoped I'm prayed of Life away many tears but one thing that I have learned through these 30 years is once someone has an image of you a certain way there's nothing you can do in this life to change it so I'm tired of feeling the way I feel and I've chosen to end it I'm not f****** around with the gauge of a rope long as it's strong enough to make my ass choke I'm tied around his beam and I'm going to watch all my hopes wishes prayers dreams float away as I am embraced by my guardian angel to take me to a better place a place where I don't have to wish hope pray and dream of someone that would love for who I am because this person does not exist not in this life the past and probably not the next so for everybody had a questions of wondering why I did what I did I'm tired of being a f****** I'm tired of being nothing I'm tired of hoping that I'll amount to something when I know that it's written in the book that I end up just like my father I can only hope my path and just quick as his so I guess this is the last one testament but been as I ain't got s*** I ain't got to worry about s*** I got no one to leave my box of my grandfather's pictures too his medals so in reality what I've got out of 40 years couple felonies about 20-30 misdemeanors a lifetime of pain sorrow not to mention inadequacy I guess I've lost my frequency because I know this is where I'm supposed to be hopefully no one else ends up like me that's why I'm doing this so they can see why it's so important to have someone that's truely believes because without at least that one person someone like me will never succeed sometimes lies is the best thing you can tell especially when you're dealing with someone that you can't really help sometimes it only help that you can give is a kiss a hug or touch and at the end of the day is that really asking that much I don't think so but then again who gives a f***

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