you know, my dad wasn't always there for me. he was always sippin on that Hennessy. I tried to go tell him to get sum therapyy, but instead I sat back and watched him bleed. my hole life is a lie, it's a parody. seeing my dad now is just a rarity. now that shit weighs down on me heavilyyy, watching him leave me and his family. now he's just a felony, he had a variety of ways to realize what was happening. but instead he decides to close his eyes and hide in disguise, he wont even open up his mind and realize how I feel inside. he was supposed to be my guide, he was suppose to provide, but denied to be in my life and wouldnt get his shit together. well I mean he tried to compromise but he's living in denial, I try to put him on trial and for a while I been trying to make him smile and I file he wont dial my number in his phone or even call me his child. i gotta it's all been piling up for 2 years, I'm sick of you drinking all that fukin beer. your just a queer, I figured you out and my heart volunteered to see it all clear. seriously makes me want to go jump off into the Pier. oh now you appear ? Oh now you want to give me a souvenir? smear it all into my face, naw keep working as a cashier, actually no dad, keep living in your own fear! I tried, I tried, why do you hate me? can you see your own son is suffercating ?? well if not you must crazy, you fukin lazy ass muther fuckin baby!!! just maybe your brain is operating in the wrong way, you act like life is a survey everyday, go and pray and try to talk to god so you can stop being a stray, and realize that I'm NOT OKAY!!! and just today, I realized you were always the one to blame. you always tried to put the blame on me, and I disagree, it's like 300 degrees in my head because I garenttee, you went there for me, if you get on your knees and count to three this whole song will just be a dream, and you will plea to the referee explaining to him why you are not guilty. you have no high Authority off of me anymore I try to envision you just going to the store everyday before you walked through that door and left.