I'm at war with myself cuz I'm at war with my mind and I can't help myself thinking about the time I almost off myself but God made his presence felt and he knew I needed help he walked with me through them dark days it was just them cards im dealt everybody has a tuff time and everybody has hard days pain is just a feeling and it all goes away I thought I wasn't loved but I felt it that day someone had my back and it guided me the right way cuz I know I wouldn't be here if I just had a sharp blade and just the thought of that cuts deeper than the damn blade so I hope these memories fade cuz it's more like a nightmare that won't go away hade to grab my bible while tears run down my face I had to pray for strength and I had to pray for brighter days I have to tell my family I'm sorry cuz I'm thankful today ya im glade im me I never wanted disappoint the ones looking down on me or the ones looking up to me life is hard life's a struggle but it makes it all worth it in the end trust I know it's tough I know how it is been there done that and I'm still trying to live feels like its a curse but life is a gift I was blessed from day one and i wouldn't chance a thing cuz all of my stuggles mad me who i am i rose above so im thank him agin gods great